Sunday, January 18, 2009

I want to be famous!


so that i can make a lot of money, so that i have more cool photos of myself on the internet, so i can live in a pimp ass condo in manhattan... so i can get swank swag at awards shows, so i can get a drug habit, so i can have my relationships all fail.. ah, i'm full of it.. i just want to make more money, get out of debt, sell my artwork, own my own business, and take really nice vacations....

Organization takes organization - I have learned.

Having spent yesterday alone - and my typical alone day consists of doing nothing - I am now motivated to get organized so I can face myself in the mirror (and my gf) at the end of this weekend knowing I am an accomplished individual.

So I poured another cup of coffee, spent a few more minutes on the sofa, watched TV about the war in Gaza, Obama's day on the train, the uplifting of the US Airways plane intact from the dingy and disgusting Hudson River, NYC real estate, surfed the web looking for places to sell my art to get famous, and googled articles about getting organized!

I found and inspiring article of which I have gleaned the best of it to motivate me - now that I am motivated I have decided to spend another 15 to 30 minutes contemplating the best of the best in the hopes that it will inspire the next task to organizational success for the day, the week, the month, the year and the rest of my life which hinges on:

Making to do lists.

Make a to do list for your day. Your list should never be more than 5 items long, or else you're taking on too much and setting yourself up for failure. Mark one or two of those items as things you absolutely must get done that day, and pursue those tasks relentlessly until you get them done.

Make a to do list for the week. Appropriate items here would be: Grocery shopping, fix air conditioner, etc. Draw from this list to make your daily to-do list. A white board or board with erasable markers can help to remember all one has to do every day, or long term goals.

Make a to do list for the month. This list would have more general tasks like: Birthday gift to Jill, get car serviced, dentist appointment. Draw from this list to make your weekly to-do list.

Make a to do list for your life! Drastic, yes, but why not use this time to rethink your life and where it's going? Getting organized is all about priorities, and it never hurts to get your ducks in a row.

And above all else-
1. Know what "organized" looks and feels like. Organized spaces also feel calm, open, and welcoming.

2. Use timers. Set a timer for how long you think a cleaning organizing task should take then work like crazy to get it done in the allotted time.

3. Ziplock bags are your friends. Store away items in plastic zip lock bags. Place the bags in closets, desk drawers, cabinets, and other places. Zip lock bags are convenient, useful, and cheap, so use them!

4. Follow through. There's no point in making a to-do list if you don't discipline yourself to complete the tasks you've assigned yourself. There are many ways to stick to your to-do list. Stop procrastinating, remove or ignore distractions, and hop to it!

As I set out to scribble to-do lists, contemplate my ducks, and pack them tightly in my new found friends - zip lock bags which will be discretely placed like easter eggs throughout my apartment before the egg timer expires - I shall remember where I came from before the to-do lists and zip lock bags pushed me in the direction of my dreams- pressing ever onward and upward into the stratosphere of a lifetime of organizational success.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Christmas

I don't have many Christmas wishes. They don't bubble forth with anticipation. It freaks me out a bit. The excitement of wrapping presents and decorating aren't core in me at this time of the year. I don't know if something is "wrong" with me or why I lack the enthusiasm.

This year has been close to a great one though. My gf wrapped my son's presents as he was driving up from Camp Lejeune, NC where he is based in the Marines. This is my first Christmas in Jersey instead of Texas. No family stress of mandatory church attendance. We went in to NYC to walk around, drive around, see the lights and eat dinner together. It was a great 5 hours of time in the city when even the taxi drivers are relaxed - so few cars and people around, no need to hustle and bustle. It was amazing.

This year I am dating someone that I have truly enjoyed buying presents for because of who she is and what she means to me. This year buying for her and giving to her was the best - watching her face light up was sooooo adorable and made ME happy to see!

I have an independent streak that this Christmas has completely hit on in all regards. This is my Christmas present to me.


Saturday, November 29, 2008

finger painting





modern expressionism - art of mine from 11/28/2008.

Empty Mind (sort of)


Thoughts don't plague me like they used to. I'm no longer obsessed with thinking. 5-15 years ago my mind was a raging river unable to stop thinking and over thinking. I'm not sure why things have changed. Age? The ability to detach better and see things from multiple perspectives? It scares me a little that I don't delve deeply, but then I'm satisfied to think (ha! think) that I am achieving some sort of zen state - zazen? I guess it's not zazen really or a zen mind because I'm not practicing sitting meditation, but this might be a good time to try.

I'm in a relationship. I'm not trying to change her. I'm not even exactly trying to understand her from my own perspective. I'm not obsessing over our differences too often. I'm not battling the little things that I would have so much.

A thought by Alice Walker come to mind (ah, thinking again):
"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow."

In all relationships there is the desire by one or the other for adjustment or change.... there is the voice that must be heard or the thoughts that want to come forward, but it's not always necessary. My mind is quieter than it used to be - my expectations are only for respect and love and some affection. My expectation is also that I won't demand it but learn to see how it is given by her and appreciate her for how it is given - not thinking too much about how it isn't.

Friday, November 28, 2008

routine


days broken down by
distinct segments of routine
rituals of time

disengaged empty
mind vacant, empty, airy
detached reality

Sunday, November 23, 2008

tourist



i am a tourist
in life, in love, everywhere

fears interrupt my
flow of emotion, blocking
my heart, putting up walls

that could be taken down
with a touch of the hand,
a desire to hold me
and pull me near